My January 2018 column for The Catholic Free Press and Catholicmom.
The month of January promises many things:
- The emotional letdown after Christmas.
- The return to work after a long vacation.
- The loneliness of an empty house after the children have gone to theirs.
- Hunkering down with the cold and snow.
- New beginnings with the new year.
- Silence, and emptiness.
All during the busyness and noise of the holidays I longed for what January would bring. While I’m no fan of winter weather I appreciate the permission it grants to curl up in front of the fire with a good book, a steaming cup of coffee and a purring cat.
The silence is a welcomed guest whom I wish would stay with me always; it is elusive, fleeing at the slightest distraction. Emptiness signals a time to be filled.
What will I fill it with?
My emptiness is not just because of children I miss. It is certainly not due to lack of activity (for this I accept with gladness). It’s not because it is cold and gray outside rather than warm and green.
There is something else I miss far more.
It manifests itself in a gnawing feeling, a sense of arms reaching out for something, for someone. It’s that longing described in the scriptures as the deer panting for water.
An empty spirit that is sorry for prayers not said, for people neglected, for preferring worldly idols, for being consumed with self rather than with others. Longing for my Beloved who seems so far away and yet is so close to me that I cannot perceive Him.
January is a month of silence.
The birds not only do not sing but don’t even come to the feeder. The cold keeps people inside of their houses. Nighttime activities abate. It’s a time of promise, a gift, an invitation to draw near to my Beloved. Silence issues an invitation to hear His whisper in my heart. The quiet permits me to see those small signs that will lead me home.
What will those signs be?
What will He whisper to me? How long must I wait in silence?
Drawing upon past experience I know that the quiet will yield its reward no matter how long I have to wait. God works best in silence and often He will remain the background, revealing Himself in His time, at the best possible moment.
So I will wait, confident of His presence even if I may not feel it just yet. I will return to being faithful to my prayers, read his Word and ask for the grace to turn from myself to others. In the proper time, when my heart is truly silent, my Beloved will make Himself known.
January will fulfill her promise.
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2 thoughts on “January promises of silence and stillness”
Beautiful January sentiments. Thank you for sharing.
Thank you! I wrote a post a while back about the book that changed my view of January https://beasone.org/2013/02/19/opening-my-eyes-to-winter/